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This Mortal Coil--Birthday thoughts

Posted on 2009.06.11 at 19:19
Another year had passed and the mortal coil loosens, its curves wider and less restrained .   I'm glad to say goodbye to the revolution past, surely the most cruel of my life, with the loss of my father a month ago, of my cat Brown Jenkins at all of thirteen years, and a nasty car wreck that now seems like ancient history.  All these events were powerful reminders of my mortality, and I ache to feel young again, to not hear the tick of the pendulum like the ever-present clock in Edgar Allan Poe's "The Masque of Red Death."

But I have dreams to carry me forward, so many loved ones, and for those things I am forever grateful.  Ahead of me I have another year to hone my craft of writing.   My number one wish for this year--that I'll finally finish the rewrite of Crucifer and turn in a manuscript that I can be proud of, not to mention make my agent gasp with delight, as opposed to cough up a hairball.   My first act of the new natal year was to recommit myself to my writing, with a certain knowledge that each day I squander, is a day that makes my art less likely to see fruition.   I don't want to go to the grave with a computer full of unpublished and unpublishable dregs.  Only the heavens know the measure of my days, and the time to focus is now.  The inkwell of my soul needs draining.

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coppervale
coppervale at 2009-06-12 06:13 (UTC) (Link)
I'm bringing your present over soon. I want to give it to you in person.

Happy Birthday, brother.
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